Stuck...

     Sometimes I ask myself why I do the things I do??? Life, as usual is crazy in our house.  Christmas is way closer than I would like to admit (I feel like I haven't had a chance to enjoy anything Christmas-y, with the exception of my tree....it really overwhelms me to think we will celebrate Christmas with two sides of our family a week from Saturday!!!), school as-usual is in overdrive and I feel like I just can't seem to keep up (however I will welcome a student teacher in the spring....hoping those extra hands will let this girly slow down a bit :), IUS is finishing up and basketball season has begun.  Basketball season isn't necessarily a busy time of year for us, but Chris works and attends quite a few games on behalf of his baseball guys.  On top of everything we also thought it would be a good idea to put our house up for sale.  Really???...like we don't have enough going on??....I don't know what we were thinking.  We weren't expecting to have much traffic, but much to our surprise the house was shown multiple times in two weeks and we had an accepted offer within that time frame.  I cannot believe our house sold in a little over 2 weeks....CrAzY!!!  Needless to say we have to find somewhere to go.  We thought we knew exactly where we were going, explored floor plans, met with the builder, thought we were ready to go, BUT....(there's always a but :) we began having second thoughts.  Two weeks ago, Nate (our favorite speaker at church) talked about he and his wife moving forward and buying a new house for their growing family.  He discussed having a plan, trying to make it work, but then stepping back and realizing they didn't NEED that.  He focused on  having everything they needed in the house they were currently in, continuing their offering to the church and finding peace with their decision.  Chris and I had a quite the heart-to-heart Tuesday night and realized we were kinda in the same place as Nate.  We are OUT of room....we are in NEED of more space (especially because we want more kids), but question where that need should take us.  We are in search of our forever home, but are trying to decide what our #1 priorities are.  Originally our #1 priority was the school district where Camryn would attend school.  That still is our number one priority, however we are having a difficult time finding that place that takes care of our needs, without too many I wants....  Chris and I are very comfortable with our lifestyle....vacations, vehicles, leisure activities, our church offering, paying our bills, me returning to school...the list could go on and on.  In order to get in the house we thought we wanted puts us in a place that makes us question if we would able to continue some or any of that lifestyle.  To some it may seem silly, but those are the things that make us happy and allow us to make memories as and with our family.  I just feel stuck.....I am feeling very fortunate that the offer we accepted will not require us to be out of our current house until March, but am very uneasy about our next step.....I am a worrier :)  I feel homeless, despite having 3 months to figure out our next step.  I am trying to remember to have faith....but being the control freak that I am it can sure be hard! :)