Summer break is officially over and back to work I go tomorrow. :(
I have been in definite denial this whole week about losing all my extra time with my sweet baby girl! As a working mom I feel like it is such a catch-22 situation. I hate the hours that I miss with her while I am at work. I hate the frustration I sometimes feel when Cammie would rather play than sleep at night or when I am trying to get something done at home in the few hours I have, which takes the place of treasuring those moments of snuggling together that will soon be gone. I hate the extra hours that I dedicate beyond the school day to IUS. I hate the fear of all the things I will miss because I am not able to be with her all day, every day. :(
On the other hand, working gives me the purpose I need each day. I like knowing I have the capability to make a difference in twenty-something little person lives each day. I love the relationships I have built with my co-workers and work friends. I love knowing the sacrifices and contributions I make as a working mom will hopefully give Cammie even more opportunities in life than I had.
Being a mom is the greatest gift I could have ever hoped for! My Cammie-bear is my world and I couldn't be more thankful that I was chosen to be her mom. I never thought I could even entertain the idea of staying home with my kids, but boy...having two full months off, watching Cammie crawl, walk, learn signs and progress from baby to toddler really made me think! :) I know the idea of work is worse in my mind than it will actually be (I hope!). I know once our routine is set everything will be okay. I know I am beyond blessed that Cammie is in such wonderful hands while I am at work. It's just really hard to tell yourself that the night before you go back!
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